In the words of Motion City Soundtrack, the future freaks me out. (Sometimes….not always.)
March is coming to a quick end and I’m one hundred percent aware of what that means for me. It means that I’ll be releasing a book in just a little over two months and I’ve never been more excited, but the nerves will always be there.
Originally, I wanted to release this book in May, and then I pulled the plug on that and pushed the thought to the back of my mind. Here’s my feelings on writing a book, or books. Quality over quantity. I will never be the type of writer who will pump out a book in thirty days, edit in another ten, and have the book released a month later. I cannot do that. I give mad props to authors who can, but I am not one of them. If that had been the case with EPOG, then I assure you, the story would have sucked. So I took my time with this story. I gave these characters every bit of life I could. I sucked part of my soul out to write this book. I’ve never put more blood, sweat, tears, or time into anything I have written. I’ve never felt as emotionally drained after writing certain chapters, as I have when I wrote this story. I’m not complaining. Please don’t think that. In truth, as hard as this story was for me, it has been my most favorite thing I have ever written. I’m borderline obsessed with my own work, and that’s not something that has ever happened to me before.
So the future…it seems like I would be greeting it with open arms and welcoming it openly then, right? Well…kind of. I’m excited to share Val, Anderson, Jordan, and Devil Town with the world. I’m excited for people to take a journey with these characters and hopefully love them as much as I do. With all of that being said, I’m also nervous as hell when it comes to opinions of the readers. I can’t help it. I always worry when I release my thoughts into the world, what people will think of not only the story, but also of me. It’s nerve wracking putting part of your soul into the world and allowing people to pick you apart willingly. It’s sometimes heartbreaking when strangers tear you down so easily, after your poured over 85,000 words into a Word Document into the wee hours of the morning. It hurts. I’m not going to lie. Everyone is entitled to their own opinions, but the easiness in which some readers can rip you apart, is still frightening. Sorry if you don’t agree or understand. I guess I would compare it to giving something your absolute all and then having someone tell you that you suck. It’snot always like that. Sometimes the praise and compliments make me cry more than any negative words ever could. The fear of the unknown is what keeps me awake at night.
But there are still things that make me excited for the future, even with my nerves in overdrive. I’ve luckily and very happily made the decision to work with a wonderful blogging/promotional company for the release. I’m so excited to be on board with them. I’m also incredibly relieved to be utilizing their services. Writing a story is tough but for me, sometimes it is as easy as breathing. Sometimes. Marketing, contacting people, setting up dates and following up on those dates…well that’s not tough, but it is when you work a full time job on top of it all, and basically work another full time job with writing. So by working with Southern Belle, I’m happy to announce that I feel like a huge weight has been removed from my shoulders. I feel like I might actually enjoy the release this time around.
In regards to the excitement of the future though…I’ve got a lot of things I am so ready for. I’m taking a road trip down south next week. Maybe Jackson Greene will make an appearance. I know you all want book three, and it’s working its way out of my veins. Maybe sitting along the banks of the Atlantic, or hanging out under Spanish moss will help me get the ball rolling again.He’s been knocking on my door, and Riley has too.
I’m taking a road trip to Michigan this summer, just to dip my toes in Devil’s Lake and walk the same paths Val and Anderson have. I’m planning that shortly after the release of the book, oh which by the way, is June 1st. Wow. June…so close yet so far.
So there’s good in the future and there is good in the warmth of spring. Maybe I don’t need to be so freaked out about it. (But I probably still will be.)
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So I guess I leave you with my final thoughts. Maybe the future is not so scary. I mean…it’s already the future from when I started writing this, right? Now things are just getting too deep.
June FIRST people. JUNE FIRST!In the meantime, please check out Southern Belle to learn about some other awesome reads. Update your summer list now! It’s coming! The future is WILD!
Xox – Hayley